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JudeeB · Sep 14, 2008, 02:31 PM

Today is my 60th birthday. I am happy and able to celebrate that today. It wasn't always so.

I used to see a birthday as no big deal, so what I suvived one more crappy year? When I turned 40 I became so down and depressed and went into a crisis center 8 weeks later. I'd thrown my husband in prison, I had 4 kids, was on welfare, food stamps, was overweight and miserable. Hadn't been diagnosed with the DID yet so I thought I was just messed up. I was a full time college student with 4.0 GPA yet had absolutely no hope for a bright future. I was wallowing in self-pity and never felt like such a victim.

Here I am 20 years later and actually happy to be alive. No idea what the future holds. I try very hard to live one day at a time. I had years of therapy, support and recovery groups. Most of my system chose to integrate and the ones who remain live in harmony.

So much to be grateful for! Grown children, 5 grandchildren, some friends who care about me and accept me just the way I am, a spiritual life that is feeding my soul, and true self-acceptance.

Is life perfect and problem free? No. I'm disabled, low-income, one child is estranged, my youngest died 9 years ago, my bf is dying. Yet I am able to see these things as a part of life in spite of how much some of them hurt.

So here I am wanting to share my joy and gratefulness for my life.

Thanks for listening,
Judy