Hi Freewill,

I have not been given a dx of DID but I have been told I was left unintegrated. And I have wondered what is so great about integration if it means that I feel worse than I did before. I have also been told I have complex ptsd.

I have come to the conclusion that "the cure" --f there is such a thing--will mean something different for each of us and that each of us will have to find the threshhold of ourselves that we are comfortable living with and loving.

I wonder if everything looks different to you now because you are integrating? I also wonder about any therapy where you are not the one to decide what to work on. It's your game you know. You should be able to take any session to any level you want.

I think that I will always want to have a T to talk to. My issues are too complex and it would be simplistic for me to think they will ever completely go away.

I wish you peace. Don't give up and get a new T if that's what you need!