Sannah, I was but in a weird sorta scary way. Halfway here and halfway gone. It feels like it was all a dream. This is a very triggering time of year for me, and Im afraid. My Therapists say they will help me through it. I want meds and they say no or we will try with out. My sister was born and died in early October right before and after my 9th bday. september was the first time the cops busted the door down that time to arrest my step father who almost killed someone. November i was kidnapped and stuff. December my mom was arrested with the cops busting down the door and she tried to shoot them. Its a hard time and I have been either medicated or self medicated during this time. Its the smells the sounds all of it triggers me the way the sun bounces off objects I know it sounds stupid but there are so many triggers. Any way thanks for "listening" Im trying to like fall. Iam trying trying and trying see my signature its a start.