booboo,

If you contact mj and it turns out you are closer to the West Coast, she can put you in touch with me. I've done crisis counseling and have many contacts here. You do not have to suffer thru this anymore, you deserve better. But as hard as it may be, you have to take that first step. Many of us here will be glad to help. Get safe and stay safe.

Hugs,
bptoo

"The brain is a wonderful organ; it starts working the moment you get up in the morning and does not stop until you get to work."