[quote=MINIME;811670] Its the smells the sounds all of it triggers me the way the sun bounces off objects I know it sounds stupid but there are so many triggers.

I know exactly what you're talking about. I hate fall. And fall has a certain smell and look and the sun does hit at a different angle. It starting bother me the other day because I noticed the way the sun was hitting things it was starting to look like fall. I get bothered out of nowhere by the most retarded stuff, but I really, really cannot help it. I have not found any way to get rid of it and my brain remembers stuff I consciously don't so it seems like anything and everything is a trigger. Sometimes I even smell, feel, or see things that aren't there (but it's not a hallucination, it's more like a movie playing before my eyes even though I'm not really there). It's hell and torture. I can't find any way to make it all go away. I've never met anyone else like that, so I was glad to see your post. I freak out like that too and can't figure out where I am or whether or not I'm real. I want to die just so I can make all this PTSD stuff (not to mention everything else) go away. And to quit being triggered by every little stupid thing, noise, sight, smell, and all the nightmares. It's hell. So you're not the only one who hates fall. October, November & December are always crappy months. I'll be right there with you.