PP,
I think your Mom is wonderful, btw.

You are having a difficult time and that is what you need to deal with.

Blaming your parents, or other people, will not serve you.

It is part of growing up.

I am still glad you will vent frustrations, like we all have from time to time.

It doesn't make you a bad person.

It helps you and those around you - to have some of your emotions decompress, but remember, we are ultimately responsible for our own emotions.

We are a thought away from loving, or kindness, or happy visions, or new beginnings.

Peace and Comfort,
nightbird