Thanks, multipixie9. =)

When I say abandon myself, I mean leave behind a portion of myself in a way...Part of my personality. I'm afraid to, but it's starting to seem more and more necessary. Everyone is telling me who I should be and who I shouldn't be...(which is myself). I'm afraid of reconnecting with myself too though...Since I suppose my current state helps me get through all the times when stress causes my parents to flare up and so forth. They're getting more and more angry at me...for who I am. If I was a good daughter I would probably have already done what they wanted and disappear, but...I don't know...lol I'll try to tell my school councilor, but it'll be a challenge....And I don't want my parents to know....