Hi Michelle:

Your post makes me want to cry. You sound so unhappy.

KV is right - it does sound like you are under a lot of stress, and need some time off and maybe some nurturing. KV's advice, as always, was really good. Also sounds like you're really lonely, I guess probably from pushing everyone away.

But I thought something else when I first read it. I thought it was really incredible how you can be so honest with yourself. I am not being weird when I say that -- I mean, I have met people that seem to be nasty to everyone, and I always thought "well, they just must not like people. Or they just like being nasty". You have kind of changed the way I'll see these people from now on. I didn't realize that someone could be nasty and antisocial, impatient, making fun of people... but at the same time, wish they were different. I think my attitude toward these people will change from here on.

Let me ask you something: What is it that somebody (your boyfriend, your parents, a new friend) could do or say that might soften you up, or get a good, positive reaction out of you? I don't know what advice I can give you, but maybe you can give me some advice for if I meet someone like you.

It gives me faith in you that you recognize that you are in danger of losing your job and your friends. It makes me think that you are closer to getting better than some of us who think we're SOOOOOO great but don't understand why we get negative reactions from people.

Tell us how we can help you - there are a lot of caring people here who will want to respond to you. Maybe tell us a little more about yourself - what your home life was like growing up, what kind of personalities do your friends have, what you're studying in school, what your dreams are...

I'd like to get to know you, if you'll let me,
Your potential friend,
LMo

We are ALL going to be a-ok!