Thank you for the response

I know I do have a problem with expectations and expecting too much it's weird because at the same time I am fully aware that everyone is a person who make mistakes and mess up along the way just as I do....To answer your questions these past guys (Three) i'll tell you about them...

Zach: He was an internet guy who I never met but got close to over the net he made me believe everything was good then one day he didn't write back then after that, that was it he STOPPED almost entirely talking to me. It hurts when everything you thought was going so well turns out of no where. It took me eight long months to get over him fully I cried so much (That was my first heartbreak). (I cut to cope)

Jeff: He went to the military but before he left he liked me a lot he gave me his necklace and wrote me twice when in boot camp and then I wrote him a letter a normal one and I NEVER got a response back to it he came back and didn't contact me. Before he left with the way we spoke and the necklace I thought we still had something and I was willing to work through it. But he just stops talking to me only recently did he write and now we have spoke via myspace a couple of times it took me two months to get over him because of the next guy. (I took downers and dxm to cope, it was bad needless to say)

Frankie: He was a major reason I got over the tremendous hurt I suffered from the break up with Jeff. I kinda jumped into things with Frankie giving him my attention you see on a side note I like having a guy in my life to feel like they are there for me and like me. BUT this guy man I will tell you things were different he was the first guy I gave all of myself too emotionally if things didn't end I would have ended up loving him and I know I am only seventeen but I would have married him down the road if he asked me too. He strengthened my relationship with God he is the singer at the youth group I go to and everything was absolutely perfect, for example he said this in a text once:....."Ah I'm so happy to know an amazing girl like you!! man I adore you no worries " and he also said "your text messages make me so happy...I'm very happy right now. I'm not going to try and out do you but...you are the most precious jewel to me that has ever lived. I will hold, strive for, and cherish you always. You are so valuable to me. There's no price that can sustain you. You are on my heart mind and soul. I adore you always..." I mean do you see that how could I have known anything would go wrong. He led me on just like the others I just wish people were as sure about there feelings as I am in those situations you see I knew I was not getting scared off but he didn't until one day he just couldn't do it anymore. THAT LAST TEXT I SHOWED YOU WAS SIX DAYS BEFORE EVERYTHING WENT DOWN HILL do you see what I mean how could I have known.....Man I am really crying inside over that just six days how was I supposed to freakin know. Man this is torture. I am still grieving. I am so hurt. That relationship broke up probably August 16th so it is recent but still I just don't want to be sad I want to be like those people who move on fast I don't want to obsess over what went wrong because I can't change anything.

It is just so saddening I have SO MUCH TO OFFER in a relationship but it just keeps getting screwed up each time by these guys. I mean I am needy I can admit but it's because I like having a guy in my life I like to care for people it helps take away from being absorbed with myself and problems I admit...This is probably bad but it's how I am. I mean I am not a crazy girl who if I am with you I act like hey where are you? What are you doing? and stuff like that I give them their space and I put there feelings before my own and stuff...I JUST start acting or better yet I feel like I am going insane and asking a lot of questions when I feel they are about to leave "abandon me" and it is with good reason because they do that is when I get crazy and depressed. I AM CO-DEPENDENT it took years to realize that I thought I was Counter dependent but I am co instead.
That is why I want to be okay with being by myself so I don't royally screw myself over later on in life.

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR RESPONDING IT DID HELP