thanks to everyone of you...it appears that my lawyer is caving on the damages that we should seek from the bank that loaned my neighbor the money on my property....that just knocks me flat. i'm supposed to pay about $14k in legal fees that we incurred because of the bank mistake? that's what he told them that we would do. he didn't even discuss it with me. it's not like Stephen to do that. i called him and he wouldn't talk to me. that shocks me completely.....so now, i just feel like "i don't deserve any better".

as for the positive??? i am good with the patients at the clinic..i'm kind and caring. and you're right.......hair do would help. i'll get the color tomorrow and get my daughter to do it. her husband is in the field. i don't really think it's depression at this point. it's more like giving up. the meds keep my mood pretty stable now.....before i would have been suicidal.

thanks for all the kind words. i'm going back to bed.......don't know what i've got or if it is a result of the meds. i see the Pdoc tomorrow... xoxoxo pat