guess i'm just showing these days what i'm really worth. i stayed clean and dry for my kids for 10 years...no need now. and yes i'm failing miserably. 3 or 4 days without anything then i just think...to hell with it...EVERYBODY in this crummy hood does drink/drugs to stay sane...what's so special about me? no point aiming above what i'm really worth right?

sorry all...i just hope y'all see you are ALL worth more than that really.