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Originally Posted by Suzy5654
Switching meds is really tough. Also, I find when I am tired at night I have the "meltdowns"--almost like a little kid--just lose it & can't think as rationally or as calmly (though I'm no great shakes at that at anytime, but learning a lot in the DBT group) as during the day.
In the light of day, I'm often so remorseful of what I said the night before: rash things, irrational things, crying hysterically, threatening divorce--though I've now learned not to do that as finally he got fed up & said OK if I make you that unhappy & you want a divorce we'll get a divorce. I don't want a divorce. I just want to feel secure & I need constant reassurance. But what I really need is to figure out how to get that feeling of self-worth from within so I don't have to be so needy with him. I'm sure I could drive him away even after all this time if I don't fix this problem--plus it is a miserable way to live, isn't it?
It's good you're addressing the problem now. It only gets worse as you get older & let it progress. Take care. Have courage. You can get over this. So can I.--Suzy
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I always lived myl life thinking as i got older i would become more mature and less irrational. boy was I wrong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I went to the websites but could not find anything in my area, they are really interesting though. I did however possibly find a therapist on one of the links on this website, he is affordable and close so we will see. ahhh i just want to be fixed...just like everyone else does.
By the way once again the way you are with your husband, is the same way i can see myself being. we always have to learn the hard way though. i feel like last night may have been a turning point. probably not though.
hang in there you seem to be becoming stronger!!!!