Hey just like the others I am sorry for your pain....I used to cut for a few years and I know how self defeating you feel after an episode. And although I do not know you or why you cut just know you are worth it and the longer you go without cutting I believe the less you want to do it at least that is what happened in my situation. Stay strong. I see where you said I can't take it anymore (I am assuming you hadn't cut in a bit) just don't worry so much like I said from personal experience the longer you refrain from cutting the better off you are with less of a desire to cut. Life gets better =)

Take care of yourself.
(write me whenever I am here to help)