Hi Lost angel,

((((((HUGS))))))

I am sorry your feeling such pain. I can relate all to well. My Uncle, at 56 years old died 1 year ago today from cancer. I loved him deeply and think about him all the time. Our family didnt have much time with him before he passed per his wishes.
I can only tell you to spend all the time you can with these people you love. Let them know you love them and care for them and make sure you make every moment with them special. It will lift their sprits and your during this very difficult time.
Again, I know your pain and I am sorry that anyone must go through this. It is so hard.
Take care