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Old Mar 24, 2005, 12:48 AM
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My fiance and his mother do not get along. She is the most insane person I've ever met. For five years I've had to witness the way she mentally abuses him. She kicks him out of the house all the time. My fiance and I don't have many friends so there aren't really many places that he can go when he gets kicked out. Since we are getting married in Sept he wants to cut all ties with his mom and leave for good this time. He asked one of our friends "A" if he could move in with him until he found a place of his own. A at first said that he didn't mind but my fiance wanted to let him think about it for a few days. A told him the next day that he didn't know how he could handle being around me if he moved in because A is pretty sure that I hate him. It couldn't be any further from the truth. A is one of the only friends that I have. I know that he is in a lot of pain right now because he lost his mom and grandmom in a car accident and his sister moved away. He's living on his own and has even fewer friends than I do... and I don't have many. He also has a crush on my former college roommate who is someone who will just use you and toss you aside. I've seen her do it to many guys and I don't want him to get hurt. I see the way she only calls him when her boyfriend can't come visit or when she wants someone to by her dinner. Whenever I try to reach out to him and try to talk to him he just avoids my questions. This really bothers me. I understand that he has things that he has to deal with but I'm only trying to help when I talk to him. I got really frustrated with him a few weeks ago and snapped at him. Now he thinks I hate him. Now my fiance has to continue living in an extremely unhealthy environment, and I just feel like everything is my fault. I tried to talk to A on aol but he just signed off after I sent him a message. I just feel like I've destroyed everything. I've joked with A for years just like I'm one of the guys (since all my friends are guys) and I think he thinks I don't like him because of it and because I snapped at him. Maybe I don't deserve friends. Maybe I shouldn't go around other people because it just seems that every friend I make, I end up making a mess of things.

I've been depressed for months now and it just seems like I'm making things worse and worse for everyone around me. I just feel like no matter what I do I mess things up.

Sorry for this post... I just needed to get it off my chest.
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