Oh lord. I'm not in the mood to post a long, lengthy update on what's happened lately (and I'm sure you don't want to read a long, lengthy one either ), but here's the short version. Suffice it to say, I'm about to scream again!!!

Now I've got the feeling that I'm being purposely excluded for things. I'm not 100% sure if this is true or not, but some of my other co-workers have been exhibiting weird behavior like going into one of the offices and closing the door "for meetings", asking to do events I'm scheduled to do with someone else at the last minute (while talking about how they were suddenly able to shufffle around their child's schedules, hmmm),and acting all secretive in a "so-and-so doesn't want to be at the same event as you, and we're helping her out" kind of way. There's also been a few "crazy people" jokes and statements in my presence that seem a little close to home, although these may have truly been meant as off-the cuff remarks--but that's the thing, I genuinely can't tell!

They'll also talk about all the stuff they ALL do together after work--that I'm not invited to do with them, or course--and will sit in a common area and talk and laugh about different things for quite awhile.

Don't get me wrong, I am not saying that they don't work, because they definitely do. Still, the type-A in me wants to kick their butts but the insecure part of me feels deeply hurt and alone. Today I went in to the break room to eat lunch and felt like the annoying kid that no one wants to sit with in the cafeteria, it felt so uncomfortable that I had to leave mid meal. (probably fueling the "Crazy beyond77" talk...) I have issues with catty women going all the way back to childhood, and this, unfortunately, is bringing it all up again. I've been close to tears more than once.

I don't know if they are intentionally being mean, or if I'm overreacting, but I just want things to be normal again...