Have you looked into intensive outpatient or even inpatient treatment, Justy? It may be that something much more structured could help you more. Also, it might be worth going IP at one of the ED programs, because their structure is such that you can make much more rapid progress than any amount of OP work.

I'm sorry that your doctor said such a thing to you, and even sorrier that you believe it. You have a choice in this, you know, and can choose to prove that fellow wrong. I hope you do.

Good luck.