sweetie.

I want to so find the "right" words..... and... I am the "younger" sister.. and I am now 52..so yes I had an older sister....by almost 2 years...

And... for us... my depression... was not caused by my sister's depression.. honest and truly.... it is in our genetics...

There is no fault on your part...

My older sister tried to "fix" things for me all the time.. and she couldn't.. because she.. was not an adult... not had the life experience to have the skill set to do that..

Her age.. is a confusing.. hormone... time... too....

Perhaps... she left her diary out for you to read.. perhaps not..

perhaps.. she wants your attention.... so she put that there.. so it would grab your attention...... and... it worked... she has your attention...

the fact that you care.. that you are this worried.. this concerned.. shows to me.. what a wonderful older sister you are... you love her...this says it....this post says.. I am a loving sister....

So... if you are up to it.. talk to her..... if not about depression or SI.. something else...

But.. do not... fault yourself....

being a younger sister.. I made my choices... not based on my older sister... really....