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I did talk to T, but I don't think he "got it". Unfortunately, I have so much going on, that it's probably hard to tease out the one thing that is the "most serious". There's a lot of serious stuff (unfortunately!).

SO. Still a little lost. Still trying. Still figuring out how to move forward.

I actually feel kind of scared that I won't be able to do it. And then what? That's hard to admit - I almost haven't admitted it to myself until right now this second.

Yikes.