I sincerelly thank you all!

All my things are packed but I'm not bringing anything with me, just my car and some cloths. I'm leaving all behind. My husband is still trying to get me to stay, sometime with his angriness, sometime with flowers, sometime with guilt.

I have hide all of this from my children until lately. It was very important for me that my children got what I didn't have the chance to have, meaning love, caring, understanding, protection, communication that would take them towards high self esteem, high self worth. I did succeed with my children. All 3 of them are wonderful. I sure hope in my heart that what I have giving them will not be destroy by what I'm going to do. I know they are seeing now what is happening between me and my husband and they love me very much but they also love their father very much. I hope they will understand at least a bit.

My move is next week, after Easter. I sure hope it will go as smootly as possible so to not upset the children. I have helped my youngest daughter move last week so they is now only me and my husband home. The day I will move there will be just us. I'm glad for that part, if something goes wrong at least the children will not be around.

I'm extremelly tired physically and mentally but I am still walking towards my plan. I am not turning back. Not this time.

I know there is people here that feels abondant and have a broken heart because someone have left them and I'm so sorry you are hurting. I didn't wanted to talk to much about this before so to not trigger anyone who feels abondant. I am in an abusive relationship and I just have to move on or I will die. I'm sorry if I am triggering anyone. I love you all so much. I don't want to hurt anyone here.

I am so grateful to all of you. This place is my refuge where I can find kindness, understanding and feel accepted.

Again thank you!
Many hugs to all of you!
nightdream