I came off all my meds. I tihnk one of them ruined my body. i haave been sick for six months undiagnosed. I know its not inmy head, because i was on my psych meds when it started. I blame gabapentin for my physical ailments. it is also known as neurontin. every med i have tried either makes me a zombie, takes away my happy moments or dulls me down so much the most creative thing i can say is whats for dinner. i want help, but i am scared. i have no doctor, and i enjoy having ideas and happiness. right now i seem to be in a mixed episode. i hate it. i am extremely enrgetic and depressed at the same time. i also think i was misdiagnosed as schizoafffective. but thats another story. has anyone found a med that lets them keep their creative power and happiness but lets your mind slow enough to sleep. i am up days at a time and i go into rages because of lack of sleep. im scared. i wish i knew what to do. i wish i knew if i could see someone right away but it never happens that way. whatever.
jennifer