I have no doubt Roz that you stayed clean and "dry" for 10 years and that your love for your children was powerfull. Do you still love them?..I'm sure they love you. I'm confused...Because the task of raising them is concluded..the love is over?

Our adddictions are seldom events. They are processes and exactly where the "tipping point" is in each person's life is hard to indentify but somewhere along the line it went from use to abuse. When we use we have some control,,when we abuse,,it has control.

Admitting our powerlessness over whatever substance is definning us is the one crisp thought that can change our very existence. I certainly don't know the aspects of your use of alcohol Roz...only you know its power over you. But if it is number one and all other things sit and wait until it is satisfied,,it is unlikely that "reasons" will be enough to steal its power.

IMHO.

With care,

Lenny