I already have posted a question on the ask page here... So sorry if this seems repetative. But I'm scared for others and my life, because of my voilent alter.

I called an agency requesting a therapist well versed in DID treatment, and I'm seeing my case manager today... But I was just recently diagnosed, and before, no one would listen to anything I said about having alters. >< It's a very distressing thing most of the time, but it gets terrifying when this homicidal alter comes out. I don't know what he will do or when. I'm only LUCKY I haven't had the police called on me, or been put in jail for the things he has done.

I'm constantly afraid, I never used to do anything, not even smoke a cigarette, (until one of my alters decided he wanted to be "cool" and smoke), but recently I've been smoking a lot of pot to sedate me.

I take prozac and that helps anxiety, but it obviously doesnt control when or which alter will come out at any given time.

I've been loosing time for about 3 years now? And I've had these alters since I was a child. So I've learned to deal with it the best I can on my own. But things are going to far, and I'm scared.

I don't want to be afraid anymore, and I don't want to keep smoking pot. I'm afraid of becoming a drug addict out of my own fear of myself. And that would be the worst thing.

Anyone have any ideas? -J'ne te connais pas -