Hi again Minime, I don't know if there's free therapy. If so I bet it's booked for months. All of the therapists around here are packed to the hilt, so if there is such a thing as free therapy it's probably full. I don't know if I believe in therapy anymore anyway. I'm lost and trying to figure out what to do if therapy didn't help me. It's really heart breaking (and I can't believe I'm writing that because I'm not the mushy type). Feeling really bad and sad and used by all of it.

No, what's EMDR? Haven't tried it. My therapist only believed in talking, nothing else. I am always open to trying and exploring new things though. I wish he would have experimented or tried other techniques more. Talking is really tough for me and sometimes I just don't know how. Some things I just don't have words for or are too blocked off for me to be allowed to talk about them.

Saw your post about talking today, good luck!!! By the way, I think you are very brave to put the fall leaves as your tag line. I thought of my equivalent picture and I am no where close to that. Sigh. Just wanted to tell you how impressed I was by that. Really made an impact on me.