You cut when you are hypo-manic? Hunh. That is interesting, I never thought about it but I certainly can see why. I know the frustration of being way up and thinking all these ideas but not being able to focus on one long enough to do anything about it. When I get that way I pace and pace and bounce up and down. At work it is awful because I just can't settle into the groove, I am great with customers though, ha ha.

Personally I only SI when I am down. It is irritating though because none of my moods last for more then a few hours but I just can't seem to remember that it isn't going to be forever that I feel that way. ah well.

As far as being able to e-mail your T, I am jealous. I can't even call mine after hours to leave a message. It sucks. I understand it though, if I had an e-mail address he would be getting 2 e-mails from me a day. I used to send him all sorts of mail but now I just write the letters in my journal and don't send them. I did however send him a letter about my cutting. I did tell him I was angry at him once...I think I told him I hated his guts and he was a worthless piece of...well you know. He didn't get mad though, I think he understands and sorta expects it once in awhile. In fact considering I am borderline he probably is surprised that I only said that too him a couple of times in the last 3 years, ha ha.
Carrie

<font color=green>Not knowing when the dawn will come, I open every door.--Emily Dickenson