thakns for asking. this is a lot, and hard for bead to write, but hear goes.......
had goodest session with T today that have ever had ( this is T new only been seeing about 2 months) adn bead realized that she can trust him, that he wants to help her, adn that he knows what he is doing gooder then anyone ever seed before ( just like old T told us but we was not sure if could beleive).T also did logn guided imagery today with bead adn he help her make a safe place to go it is a yellow house that we start to maek.it hepl baed adn everyone calm down suzanne even stpo crying! Have bad conflict hear because bfreind wants to move to arkansas!
so like bead tried to tell him cannot leave anohter T especaily when finlay found one that can and will hepl. he did not acknowledge that we even said anything
Then we lost a bunch of time - like that was this monring at 9:30 am and now its 9:30 pm bf did not say much to us that gave us clue what was done or who was out but hes did say somethign to baed - "while u were dozign on the couch i wetn in ur yellow house". Apparently we falled asleep sittign up again for about 20minutes he told us. This is EXACTLY the type of thign we worry about y bead never even feel safe to go to sleep( learned when little that she had to stay on gurard all the time especially at nite and is still that way not know how to be any other way). how dare he go into my safe place wehn i are not there!!!!!!!!!!!Now we i geuss are gonna have to wait until see T agian adn make a hole new house. we really like the one we started tho and he invaded it!!! so like things are not calm any more inside our sysetm
like they was when we left T (imao that). It is helping just to get this out even if we are kinda embarassed. rite now pc is bead's only safe place again. very thanks ful are here. thanks evryone for their support!!
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