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Originally Posted by katielee102
I always lived myl life thinking as i got older i would become more mature and less irrational. boy was I wrong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I went to the websites but could not find anything in my area, they are really interesting though. I did however possibly find a therapist on one of the links on this website, he is affordable and close so we will see. ahhh i just want to be fixed...just like everyone else does.
By the way once again the way you are with your husband, is the same way i can see myself being. we always have to learn the hard way though. i feel like last night may have been a turning point. probably not though.
hang in there you seem to be becoming stronger!!!!
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I know what it's like to get paranoid katielee. I do so very often, yet rarely voice it as I do not want to push my wonderful lover away. I once was infuriated, feeling everyone had betrayed me, and was glad of it. I felt homicidal and yet, I was sobbing concurrently. These things happen, to varying degrees in everyone.
What I would suggest is to simply, think of other things, other positives that cancel out these negatives. For instance, how much you love your companion. How wonderful he is to you, things of that nature. If that doesn't work I would suggest you seek treatment of some kind for these thoughts. They are invasive and uninvited and most of all, unpleasant. Dispel them if you can, and if not, then attempt to do so with guidance from someone/others.
Hang in there, all is not lost.
Psychotic_Phil