dayzee,

I'm so sorry for your loss. It is very hard to acknowledge and accept death, especially when it comes so unexpectedly and when a person is still fairly young.

I lost a sister 7 years ago, she was my oldest sibling, she was 51 and would not take care of herself due to depression and alcoholism. She also had a physical illness(diabetes) but wouldn't do the proper things to keep herself healthy. Anyway, I had one thing from her - a delicious fruit salad recipe- so, every February 22, or around there, I make the " Luana" salad in remembrance of her. Maybe your brother had a favorite food you could have, or a favorite movie you could watch.

If you need to talk you can send me a PM anytime. Warm thoughts are sent your way.

Mandy