Things have happened since I was last in that forum. I voiced my opinion and so much negativity has resulted since then. PMs have made it clear the effect that had on some but you're right, I shouldn't say that nobody likes me but when I'm depressed I wonder how long it will be before those who haven't rejected me will. When I read the positives that I've stated in the Self-Esteem forum, I can't find them in me when I'm depressed. I wonder if they were ever there to begin with. Maybe I just *wanted* to see them, maybe I was fooling myself, maybe I'm some of those things, maybe I'm none. If I can't see other things clearly, maybe the same thing is true for my self-perception.