Thanks so much you guys. Thanks thanks. The support has really helped me feel stronger. I am doing better today. Im really really tired. The pain comes and goes moslty goes and it isnt so bad today. In fact I feel a bit better. I talked to my emdr therapist and she gave me helpful hints. 1. Buy M&m's and they can be my pain pills for the nine year old girl. 2. Listen to the voice mail she left me when I feel alone. 3. remind myself I am not trapped and I am a grown up now. 4. write her a letter if I need to talk to her to feel connected. 5. Call her and leave a message if I want as many as I want. 6. drink hot cocoa (my idea)6 stay warm so I dont feel cold.
I feel like I can do this. I hate the pain its starting again right now . I am ok.

I will be here alot this weekend. I love that I feel safe here and supported. i can support you guys too. ((HUG))