Well, I haven't decided if I'm on the manic side of things. If I am it's only the second time ever - the last time didn't count because I was overdosing on St. John's Wort, but I haven't taken too much of anything lately. I did score 34 on the mania quiz (if you click on quizzes at the very top of the page). If that's what's going on then the cutting would be to try to stay up and avoid the crash, which wasn't nice at all last time.

My T let me have his e-mail address last spring. I'm really not good at talking about things, but can write, so it really helped to have that option. Sometimes I send more than 2 e-mails per day, but then I get anxious about him not answering and slow down. He even forwards junk mail to me sometimes. He'd probably like it if I got mad at him, since angry is outside of my range of emotions. He really hasn't, but previous therapists have really tried to make me mad just to see if it was possible. Apparently it wasn't.

Thanks for your comments.
Wendy

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