Hello. I don't know who you are even though that doesn't matter, I hope that the posts from other members have inspired you to take the actions necessary so you can reach the safety and sanity of the world (THIS ONE!) that DOES want you to exist and remain in it. It is never too late, and there is never a time like the present! DO IT! There is a world of happiness, beauty, and LOVE that awaits you, but only YOU can make the decision to leave. So let this be it.
Godspeed.