I am sorry for your loss.

I don't have any answer but I know the hurt. You probably know what your brother enjoyed in this life. I'm sure he liked something. We all do even with depression. Maybe on this day you could do what he liked to do or eat his favorite meal in honor of your love for him. I don't really know. I'm just giving you some ideas, just because I hear you and I care.

Take care dear precious {{{{{{{{{{{{Dayzee}}}}}}}}}}}}

nightdream