I think that having a special ceremony would be a lovely way to honor your brother. You could be alone, or with your husband, or you could invite a couple of your best freinds to join you. Just have people who would understand. You could say that you were so upset at the time, that you didn't really get to process the funeral, and you'd like another chance. You could go to his gravesite, or to a pretty place in the woods. Read poetry, the bible, whatever would be appropriate for him and you. You could light a candle, release a balloon with a message, plant a tree, lots of different things. Or, simply be together and talk about him...just send him your love.

I think ceremonies are very healing.

Post here too, and we can be part of your ceremony.

Take care. emmy