Thank you Kaite, I don't know how I did it back then, It happend when lots of stuff was going on, it happend the week after my dad got out of jail, I was 14...felt like i was 60, my mom was emotionally abusive druing this time too, it's bad, such bad time, things better now for friend and her mom, her dad finally got sober, had relaspes but they have a healthy realtionship now, her mom remarried, this memory still haunts me...all da hurtful words...so much..feels like its crushing me....afarid everone here wold hate me after shared ths...dont hate me...