(((jeneteconnaispas))) - i don't know you either, at least yet, but i hope i will. =) you have found a great place, welcome to PC!

i also had a fairly dangerous alter but she is currently dormant... very weird. i thought we had integrated... with the "integration" she decreased the amount these dangerous activities and i was aware of them, and thought she was on her way to recovery... but now i'm not so sure.

i hope you will find a therapist - that will help you a lot. i don't have a therapist but i read self-help books and those are also very helpful. there are a lot of books about DID nowadays.. some quite controversial though.

also, you may feel crazy - but that may not be the truth =) (being DID is not crazy - it's just something that happens when things are made very rough for a child)