Honey, your doctor knows nothing. But let me tell you, the second you believe it is the second it comes true.

You ever in art classes? To loosly quote my drawing teacher, that humans are capable of damn amazing things, but they are so easily barred from it. When you put up a wall, when you convince yourself something is going to happen it is. When you tell yourself that you can't recover, you aren't going to.

You have choices to make, the biggest now is telling the doc off and finding a new one. There is NEVER EVER a time when there is no hope. What kind of a world would that be?

Get up, make a call. I'm serious, you can get better.

With eating disorders, you don't always recover all the way. You'll always have the seeds of it in your head, but honey. It can get so so so much better, I promise. Don't give up, cos it seems like whenever you want to start giving up, the end comes in sight.

Keep at it, keep us posted! I'm thinking and praying for you, you hear me? Don't believe that %#@&#! for a second.