Everywhere i go people are always talking about me negatively under their breath. I'm fully aware but never say anything, nevertheless it continues daily. I'm the person they laugh about and make fun of, whenever they see me coming or going or god forbid staying and doing my job. To them I am the weird paranoid kid that is out of touch with the world and has no friends but is always nice no matter what. They think they can do or say whatever they want to me and i won't care and will let them because they think i want them to be my friend. At the same time they think i'm plotting something and always look at me like one day i'm going to go crazy and bad things are going to happen as a result. Why do i have to be the topic of conversation, why are people facinated, disgusted, and scared of me? Why do they have to contiuously make fun of me and don't they know that this why I feel like i do? Don't they know that I would never do what they are doing to me to them, and why me in the first place? >JL
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