(((((((((((((((((((( nicole ))))))))))))))))))))))
Welcome. You are not alone anymore, and won't be whenever you're here.
I'm so sorry that things seem so difficult and dark right now. I do hope that it doesn't stay that way.
Can you tell me if you've been in therapy or sought out a therapist...current or past? I really think you might benefit from having a therapist to walk through this difficulty with you, but also know we're always here.
KD
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