((((((mineemouse)))))) You are so not alone! I can totally relate. In the late '80's I married and moved to Hawaii. Heaven, right?? Wrong!! My husband had lived there for a year already and I was painfully painfully shy. He used to get upset at me because I hadn't made any friends. I didn't work, didn't have a car to go anywhere, it was the first time I had been away from home. I kept asking him, "honestly, what do you want me to do? Walk across the street, knock on a door and say, 'Hi, will you be my friend?'" For some people it's easy to do things like that--not me. It's frustrating when the we love doesn't respond how we would like or even in a 'normal' way. I totally agree with seeking someone to talk to; but like everyone else said, you always have us. Vent, cry, scream, rant, laugh, feel safe. You can do it all here.