Dear freewill:
While I personally don't have alters, I once had a very very dear friend who did, so I can understand to some small degree. As for grief, I totally relate. It hits at the strangest moments sometimes, and you just have to let it come out. I lost my husband in March of this year. I took my dear Mom's advice to "keep busy", and wound up terribly depressed, scary depressed! I'm better now, but still very sad and lonely. Some days I don't even get out of bed really and I rarely leave the hous if its not to work. I hope you feel better soon!
zoeo99
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Originally Posted by freewill
I lost my very good friend... months ago... and.. held feeling the grief in... and.. with my son's friends.. at such a young age 24... childhood friends.. I couldn't go to the funerals... I couldn't....I keep saying.. I couldn't.. I couldn't...
There has been so much death... in the past 4 years for me.... I feel surrounded by death...and I just couldn't go to one more funeral....
And tonight.. it hit me so hard... I can't stop crying.. the grief.. the pain... my heart it hurts so so so bad....
I feel.. like my heart is going to explode...
and I am DID... so when.. I get very upset... my alters get very active... and it makes an excurciating headache.. it is a special kind.. like a band around your forehead... that tightens and tigthens.. unbearable...
when the alters calm down.. the pain goes away... not like a real headache....
I took Darvcet... because I need.. to not "feel"....
can't figure out why I am posting....
does anyone out there understand????? grief....
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