* I would suppose that I am older than most of you in this group,
however, I do believe than NO ONE IS IMMUNE TO DOMESTIC VIOLENCE. * I
am a professionally educationed women, divoced after 24 years, and
did not accept anything othet than lunch dates as I had a 14 yr old
daughter at home to raise and as I thought then and now to set an
example for.

In any event, I hooked up with someone after 4.5 years, who literaly
beat me senseless for 6 long years. My profession was Public Health,
therfore I know medicine.
I endured 3 cases of bi-lateral broken ribs, choking to the point of
blacking out and wearing turtle necks in the summer in florida....I
still bear the scars on my right arm from him cutting me.

It took 2.5 years to get out safe. He was targeting my family un-be -
knowest to them.

In any event, I'm certain several of you can relate to taking the
brutal punishment in effort to save your family.

Here is my delimmena ...........both of my daughters have turned
their back on me..My girls are the only family I have. They view me
as being weak, incompenent, vile, and a LOSER....which I'm not. Now
after being / feeling safe 18 months ( yes I still have nightmares
nightly, flashbacks, intrusive thoughts, and emotional (crying /
rage ) outburst.

My theraptist has no question that I am dealing with PTS and yet my
daughters are only interested in what they are going to inherit.

My quandery is it's hard to let go, however I certainly hope that it
will not be to late for any of us before they attempt to
understand/tolerate my errratic behavior due to PTS.

Althugh I certainly hope no one else is being rejected by their
children, I would appreciate any input regarding the efects on the
violated women and her family who are degrading more so than he did.

With Faith, Hope , and Sincerity,
SUNNY