(((((freewill & multipixies9))))) You guys just made me cry--in a good way, though. Thank you so much! You're right, just having somewhere to let it all hang out does help. I really appreciate you taking the time to help. Oh, speaking of cranberry--yesterday I bought 64 oz of cranraspberry and 64 oz regular and cranberry pills and loaded--started drinking right from the jar! I appreciate all the hugs and care.