I've been in the same situation you are in right now. Things will get better. You are in my thoughts and prayers that you can pull through this. Have faith.

I just got out of the hospital and thought I could go back to work, but it's too much for me right now. I'm in a PHP and that's almost too much for me at times so I just quit my job. It's gonna be rough but I know I can do it...and so can you.

Good luck.