Hi.. the subject of pleasure when experiencing abuse is not spoken about much in the literature and yet I have spoken to many individuals who have been abused AND have also experienced pleasure. You are certainly not alone!!

There is a good site that I found right here under "resource directory" that does speak about this very clearly. Psychotherapist Kali Munro works with many abuse clients and has an article that is designed to address this subject directly.

http://www.kalimunro.com/articles.html

I hope this helps!