Thank you all so much for replying.
I am struggling this week maybe because things were mentioned during T last week and the 'hangover' is lasting longer than usual. T is still another week away and I have so many questions and experiences to discuss. A week of triggers wears me down and keeps me awake and anxious. I am beginning to work out that maybe the work out of T is harder than the hour in T each fortnight.
I have been taking comfort in hearing other posts here so thank you