Thanks pixie for the words. I know you are a sweet person and a good person.


I wanted to update on how my Therapy went with my regular T. It went good. I told her how i feel about this guy living inside me being in my DNA and how i wanted to get him out (not a good way). I was honest and I was crabby. she sat by me and I started to cry. I just couldnt be yucky if she sits by me. I just feel so bad sometimes I cant think. She told me her couch was a enchanted couch and it transfers my bad feelings from me to her. To the bottom of her shoes and she will step on the guy for the rest of the day and wash him off in the shower tonight. She is goofy. I let myself believe it and tried it. It worked a little. she also gave me my gold star. I made it into a necklace and am using it as a magic pendant and when i feel like hurting myself to get this guy out of me I just focus all my energy on the pendant and it goes in there and makes it go away. I saw my T's worried face again today and when i see that I always think about what I am doing and thinking saying and stuff. It helpe me look at myself outside myself and her worried face is sad to see and shows me what I am doing or whatever is something that needs to be looked at. I dont want to worry her unless i cant help it. She hugged me. that little nine year old girl I was felt that hug. Im starting to think I can do this. I just have to be honest with my T's both of them. No matter what I have to say i need to say it. I have to just tell them. No hiding no dodging no nothing just honest. I hope I feel this strong tomarrow.