Thanks Tired, i really appreciate you saying this and it helps me feel like I am leading the way for others and it makes it even mor worth it.

Sannah you have been such a great support through out this and I thank you. I know my T's would thank you to. I just cant believe that I am actually doing this. I am doing this! Its hard and its yucky but Im trying. I left a message on my reg T's voicemail and I told her that Im fighting as hard as i can. I told her that I cant always be this strong and sometimes I wont be able to be this way but for now i feel strong. Sannah thanks for the PM offer. i will take you up on that. I need that.

Thanks to everyone who has supported me by posting reading and/or just thinking about me. I cant tell you how much having you guys has helped. I look foward to supporting you guys in return. I get happy when I work hard and I think i cant wait to tell psych central how this worked or how i feel about this. Doc John had a vision and its coming true for me. Doc John is the heart and soul of how mental health should be. he trusted us enough to give us a place to support each other and grow together. he didnt just think well they are only going to be helped by professionals he saw that we can and do need to have support from other people.

thanks everyone.......