I do write my own songs, yes, but the depression and ED and everything else has clouded over me and caused me not to be able to write, so that's just caused me to get even more depressed because it's what I want to do as a career.. If I can't do it now because of depression, how will I do it then?

Maybe.. I don't know.. Everyone's just like "well she has her issues, so we're going to stay away from her, from that ball of problem.." I hate that.. It kills me.. It's ruining my college life and my life at home, my life in general.. I'm losing everything and everyone.. All because of my ****ed up head..