That line & the sheep couldn't have put it any better. That's how I thought of quitting earlier in the summer, just not going and not calling so he'd be so pissed off at me I'd never have to go again. Kind of like getting fired from therapy so I didn't have to quit on my own.

Oh Pachy, I know just what you're talking about. The only things that really help me are my kitty, drinking & cutting. I know I'm not supposed to post the last two on here, but it's true. They are more efficient and much cheaper than therapy on providing me any relief. My cat takes better care of me than my therapist did, plus he's not human so he's ten times more trustworthy.

I wish I had some magic answer for you too. I'm not surprised isolation is the way you can get reorganized. Isolation is the only way I'm getting by right now actually, I've cut myself off from the world and people as much as possible. I know you're tired and exhausted and trying to get help from inept people is even more tiring and exhausting. I wish I knew what to do or say to fix it and make it better for you. Please know we're thinking of you and we care about you. Let us know how it went if you did or didn't go. Like the others said, you are smart and it makes it even harder not to see through dumbA** therapists and their phonyness & greed. Some of us share your sentiments at least. You can rant to us as much as you need, we're here for you.